Thursday, June 19, 2014

Boys who write and girls who read...................!!!!

Not many boys write. From those who write, not many write for themselves, most of the time it is for an image they want to acquire, or to show the world that they can write, or they write for the sake of writing. ‘Writing’ is never combination of few fancy words on an offbeat or mainstream topic; neither is it flamboyant ornamentation of vocabulary. Writing is never show off of tough, not so common words and trying to ape some particular style heavily influenced by some movie or novel. Writing, in its crude form is just expression, and serves only one purpose i.e. to express. A boy, who writes, wants to express.  He wants to express every emotion that he feels, everything that he goes through, every joy, and every pain, everything that affect him in some way.  He wants to sketch a picture of all the scenes irrespective of whether they are beautiful or ugly around him and represent a complete lucid picture of what he wants to show.

A boy who writes knows that he can’t control the world. Sooner or later, he would just be slave of thesituations. But he can create an alternate world which only he can control. He can create characters he like and make them do whatever he wants them to do. He has full control over a world. He is king of a hypothetical world, he is the supreme authority and no one can challenge his powers. He can show the real world a mirror through his fiction world. He can draw characters inspired from real world to unmask people and their hypocrisy. He can inspire, he can give messages which can change the entire perception of people. He can motivate, re energize, revive, and support people. He can create magic and be the magician that can dazzle people.

A boy, who writes, often finds himself incapable of finding a suitable medium to emit all his frustration and hence chooses ‘words’ as the medium. He is not much concerned of what people will think, who will read and what would be their response because mostly his concern is his expression, the one right no one can take away from him. For all the turmoil going into his head, uncontrolled thoughts, blurry images, half baked ideas, complaints, tensions, stress, he got only one solution, to write it up. Writing is more of permanently bookmarking something. Something that happened and you are sure , you would forget or become unaffected soon but would like to visit it somewhere later in the future and hence you create a save point by writing it down.

A boy who writes is often lost into thoughts. He may appear completely normal, doing mundane task, doing what he is suppose to do and doing it pretty perfectly without raising any doubt or he may be completely quiet, completely lost in some other dimension, temporarily transited to some other world where only he and only he is allowed to enter. In both the cases, he is thinking, he is thinking and shaping words. Words, that pops up automatically into the head. Words, that needed to be given a direction, a shape, a proper orientation and converts them into something that would make sense, that would be meaningful.   

A boy who writes is quite often not a charming one and thus attracts less attention. He is not well known. He doesn't have a mesmerizing voice that could charm any listener. He doesn't have any dancing moves to impress anyone.  He is not a rock star that would become one with his music instrument and completely change the atmosphere. He is least known and lives his life mostly away from the lime light. He might have a limited fan base and that’s all he wants and expects. He doesn't want to be appreciated but to be understood. He is not loud, he is quiet. He can’t make you dance on his beats but he can make you tranquil. He can’t fill you with energy but he can provide you peace. All he has is words, words that he himself is puzzled off, and often gets confused but somehow he struggles and tries to align the words into something more meaningful. He can sing with his poems, he can make you move with his rhythms and flow; he can generate music by his intensity. He is a dancer, singer, musician all in a disguised form and only for those who would take interest in understanding him.


Some girl reads. Out of those girls who read, only a few reads for the real purpose of reading. Reading is a tough habit. Very hard to develop, much harder to maintain. Some girls read because other girls tell them something to read, some reads because their teacher told them to read, but a few girls reads because they find it worth spending their time. Reading completes them. Through reading, they get to know a part of themselves that they can’t access in normal world. Reading take them to a fairy world, where they can meet their prince or to a place where they can realize that they don’t need a prince, they are the princess of their own world.

A girl, that reads, doesn't live in a fiction world. She lives in reality and knows how to convert the reality into fiction. Reality is harsh, fiction is an escape, you have to find a mid lane and a girl that reads knows how to approach it. Reading makes her strong and prepares her for the battles she has to fought daily. Reading gives her support and pampers her. Reading encourages her to take steps she is afraid of taking. When she reads, the characters don’t judge her. She is free to roam in the world, unafraid of anything that might harm her. Whenever there is a void in her life, that she can’t feel, she would read and find something that will feel the incomplete.

She reads because she knows world is not perfect and is hard for a girl. She reads because she needs strength. She reads because she knows that the world would never understand her and won’t even try to understand her. She reads because she wants to immerse herself into something sane, something dignified, something gentle and something comforting. She reads because sometimes there is nothing that can explain life to her apart from the words of the book. She reads because that is something she does for herself, where she doesn't have to prove something to someone, where she doesn't have to fought any battle, where she could relax and take deep breadth and lost in the flow of words.

Not many boys write, not many girls read. Not many boys get people who would like to read his work, not many girls get writers who would write what they want to read. A boy who writes need not always require a muse for writing but can write far more impacting and touching content with a muse. A girl, who read, could be a perfect muse for a boy who writes. Let’s hope all those boys who writes get a girl who reads.



Saturday, June 14, 2014

Sheep in the big city......... !!!

For those who find the title weird, it was an animated series about a sheep that, due to some unfortunate conditions, was forced to survive in a big city. Most of us are like sheep, small town people, who don’t know much about big cities and find it very weird and then there is always a general feeling that you do not belong to this place. Whenever a small town person arrives in a big city, the feeling of curiosity and excitement is soon overshadowed by feeling of fear and awkwardness. In any case, transiting to a big city is always adventurous and it’s never as straight and normal as it should be, thus lots of stories are created that are cherished and enjoyed forever.

Initial few days are always great and enjoyable, whenever you arrive in a big city. It’s more of a holiday or a picnic, you meet new people, you see new places, you taste new food, everything is new and big and something that so far you haven’t experienced. You click lots of pictures and upload them on your Whatsapp and Facebook with very catchy captions. But then, the later part if completely opposite, if not completely opposite then far more troublesome and full of struggles.

First thing is finding the accommodation as you have permanently shifted from your city to this one and you have to settle here now. I don’t know about other cities, but here in Pune, or particularly in the area where I have to stay, it’s a very challenging task. There aren’t any ‘TO LET’ boards here everywhere so that you can go, enquire the owner, and happily return with an accommodation. Internet is not much of a use, as it only points in a direction but not at a particular point. If you are lucky and know somebody who is already staying there then you won’t be having much trouble but if you are on your own then you are trapped in a vicious circle of various brokers who would ensure you that it’s their responsibility of finding an accommodation for you but you would get to know the reality soon.

You would roam around with the brokers at various places, searching for the perfect place. Sometimes you will roam around for days and would return empty handed daily. In most of the cases, you would indeed find a flat or a PG or something; you have to give a very large sum as brokerage to them. Those who take flat give a token money, and return very relieved and ensured that they have a place. But wait, there is a catch. Just a day before, when you have to shift, your broker would call you that the flat has been given to some other person, or the owner said that he won’t allow bachelors to live in his place and you could take your token money back. Now, here you are, with nowhere to go and no place to live, completely betrayed and doomed, and all you can do is to control your anger and somehow think of a temporary solution for the time being. A poor helpless sheep, lost in the big city.

If you are lucky (unlucky), you would also understand the meaning of “each men for himself”. Self interests indeed overpower greater good at times, and you will have a piece of it sooner or later. On the other side, you would find unexpected unpredictable help out of nowhere. New hands will always be there to help you out and take you out from various problems. There would always be support and comfort.

One more big change that ‘sheep’ like us observe in this big cities are, there is a very noticeable line between simplicity and sophistication. You don’t eat like people here eat, you don’t talk like they do,  you would fumble a lot when you are speaking English or you would be very uncomfortable. Your plate, your eating habits, the kind of food you are having would always be very different and far away from sophistication. Your dress, your demeanour, your body language, all would make you realize again and again that you are way out of league here. Inside we all are human, but the place where we live in changes our interface. Everyone who has arrived here has started from streets. They felt the same discomfort, same cultural change and there comes my greatest fear, of losing the small town guy in me and becoming the same sophisticated person.

It’s very easy to lose yourself, your soul and the small town guy in you in these cemented structures. At times, you feel very small in front of all big skyscrapers. You feel lesser because you don’t fit in. In the process, you try to be one of the sophisticated guy, you tend to smile less and be serious more. You tend to not enjoy the small happiness of life. You tend to work more and dream less. You become a part of a structure where you are just a digital part of a large circuit running forever in a loop and producing no results at all.


As much excited and curious I am for this newer phase of life, I am afraid in equal quantity to not lose the inner small Towner. I don’t want to be formal and professional. Life is good in this way. I can laugh and make laugh. I can eat and treat. I can pull legs and make a fool of myself. I can think and act. They say life here is a golden cage, it will give you an illusion of comfort and you would be trapped here forever. We all have wings, but with times we just forgot to fly, all I wish is to retain both the wings and the determination to fly.