And the saga continues.......

Well back to the e-diary format . I just put that reservation post because while preparing for our exams .We often taunted people of reserved category that time by " sale tera to beena padhe hi ho jayega , tu kyu tension le raha hai " . A clear line between the unreserved and reserved category people was visible .Anyways I was shocked after my terminal exam result . The period after this is very comic and I can bet all of us goes through this . " agli exam to phod dunga " , " ab to har din 8 ghante kam se kam padhna hai " , " sala wo to rat(mug) ke acche number le aaya is baar aise padhunga ki sab dekhte rah jayenge " . It is the most comic and political human nature that we do not keep our own promises . Although we try our level best but it does not work for more than 3 days . We just come down to the same routine again .Same happened with me also . Meanwhile I was getting addicted to net . Beginning with 1 hour soon it reached to the peak of 10 hours daily . It was the most frustrating routine . Coaching hours were increased and I was constrained from 2:30 to 9:00 at coaching . It now seems unbelievable how I managed to sit for such a long hours . Rest of the time I just used to stick on net . I started sleeping daily at 3 or 4 am and still managed to get woke up at 6 am .
Occasionally that temporary euphoria came back during which i used to be regular and consistent with studies but eventually all ceased for at most 3 or 4 days . Studies didn't seem to be of any enjoyment as t hey were in 10 standard . It was just like getting trapped between school and coaching and net was the ultimate way of getting an escape . I often think that we all live that character in virtual world which we wish to live in the real world or whatever our hidden part is in the real world . Net is the ultimate way to emit out all of our frustration . But it was really proving to be a cage for me . As a drunkard or a smoker promises not to drink or smoke again but ultimately he can't resist . Same was happening with me in the case of net . Daily I tried my level best for not opening it but eventually I always failed to subdue . I still feel that overcoming net addiction is tougher than leaving smoking or drinking .This resulted in screwing half yearly too .During my physics paper I was on net till 4 am . Opened book and studied till 7 am ( yeah for the first time ) then also managed to get a little above half marks .
I used to watch some serials for teenagers at Disney channel and I often felt that the students outside India enjoys and develop much in this period than we do . We just often mug , mug and mug to get a good college in this period which is the pillar of our upcoming life . We are devoid of many interesting and influential things . We are burdened by our own dreams . We never innovate , initiate or introspect in this period and just continue to follow what the mob is doing . Still we brag that Indians are the brightest and most talented student but I don't think so . As per me Indians are just well trained and can work more and better like a donkey than any other contemporary student of other country does . Except a few all Indians are just doing job in some good company or institution . We are not the innovators rather just the followers . All the important inventions and experiments are being carried out in the western country . We do not have any contribution in any important innovation . All the new upcoming are taking place in the west . And those Indians which have done something belongs to the western organization and countries . Few days ago I have read a blog in which a guy was thanking god that Venkatraman Ramakrishnan doesn't cleared IIT JEE and went to USA and won the noble prize . This clearly reflects the image of Indian Education system . Why the government doesn't encourage research work ? Why all of our institution focus on good industrial interface rather than new research works and innovation ? No one of our youth even think about doing any kind of research work . And why will they think of it as neither our government nor any of the educational institute bother to provide any good opportunity or resources to them . Till the situation changes I think we should just keep on bragging " agar NASA aur microsoft ke saare indians wapas aa gaye to dekhna India kaha pahuch jayega "