The end of 11th class ....

With all these problems some how I was able to struggle and survive until I got ill just before the half yearly exams . Due to which I was not able to attend both the school and coaching for 2 weeks . When I returned , I was just kicked out from the competition . I was finding it hard to even sit in the class rooms as whatever being taught I was not able to grasp even a single word of that. So I took the first risky decision of my life . I left coaching . By doing this I became the most peculiar and stupid guy in the whole world . Daily I received calls from many students who had not even touched the books , telling me how wrong my decision was and what repercussions I will have to face. Even my parents were against this decision and daily my dad continued to injure me with his taunting verbal arrows . But some how I remained firm to my decision and I thought to do things by myself as I was scared that I will not clear even the 11th standard.
By now my net addiction was on peak .I have already mentioned how much effort I was putting to came out of this vicious circle but I was getting trapped in it further . I believe in the concept that each and every thing of this world have some positive and negative aspects although their ratio may vary . It doesn't matter to me how much time I wasted on net but what I learned their still aids me and it have made my character very fierce and strong . My life has always introduced me with all type of exceptions . Before coming to net I had read that many peoples in net have fraud identities but I always believed that this cases are the exceptions and it would be rare encountering such cases . Firstly i found it very exciting and new . Talking with people of different states and even of different country . I loved to dominate other peoples and had become much arrogant in that period . The changes in my virtual life were visibly influencing my real life . I used to think about what will be happening in the virtual world for hours. The conspiracies and politics happening there now seems very funny to me today but that time I felt to be entangled in cobwebs .
I was able to live that character on net which I wished to live in the real world . I used to call me king that time and was thinking like Kareena of " jab we met " that whatever we think surely happens in life . In real life I hardly talk with any girl ( don't ask why but I have to clear I am straight not gay :D ) . I feel very nervous while talking with girl . But on net I used to even flirt with girls lightly. I had become much popular in zapak that as I was in the top 10 rated players . I was considering achievements there as real life achievements and used to brag about them . Their used to be a time when I used to think that at that the world was full of just good people and how wrong i was. Some people might behave bad but due to circumstances . I hadn't met fierce liars at that time . My net life cleared a lots of myths of my real life . One of this was that people do not irritate or disturb you until you initiate. My net life ended with an exceptional event . I still lack the guts to write about that . But I emerged out as a matured and better person after it as I was now able to understand that you can never trust anyone and even the most intimate person can also cheat you .
The annual exams were near that time and I hardly had read even the titles of many chapters . This was the first time in my life I was thinking of just passing the exam and above 60% was looking like 95% . But I always have the confidence to rely on my mugging capabilities . I was able to pass just by mugging before 2 or 3 days . Once again English hiked my percentage to 66 and I was feeling glad even after a decline of 22%. All others were baffled (some happy too ) by my failure but I was celebrating . As I expect from myself I made lot of time tables and planned various things for re-initiating my preparation . But guess destiny has written something else for me . I'll post that in next blog .