When will that tomorrow come .... ??

करा काम दिन भर
सोचा आराम करेगे कल
कल आया आज बन बैठा
बैठ न पाये बस हम

“We work hard for making a better tomorrow and when it comes we again started working thinking the same “

Received this thought provoking message few days back. It just made me to introspect and swim in the ocean of past again and there it was justified. All of us are running blindly in order to take rest some day but that day never comes. We all are earning to build an expensive bedroom, decorated with all type of expensive accessories, a beautiful bed inside it but what we don’t have is the time to sleep on that bed.

When I rewind my life a bit I realize that today was the tomorrow of past time which I used to think will bring peace and joy in my life. But I am still running on a bleak and lonely road with no final destination in lust of having peace and relief one day. Stopped playing outdoor games and online games thinking that I must concentrate on 10th class study then I will enjoy. When 10th class ended I started running for good marks in 12th board and in the hunt of a good college. Scored well in 12th but failed to find a position in good college so took drop thinking after this I’ll enjoy life. Suffered a lot of mental pressure during the drop year but a clear picture of enjoyable life keep on refueling and inspiring me.

Finally the period of ambiguity and uncertainty ceased and I landed in college. Since Infancy I have heard things about college. College has no study, no formalities and discipline. College is the coolest and funniest place where you just hang with friend. But all this day dreaming faded as soon I entered in the college. Nothing changed here except random dresses. I am finding myself here also entangled in the cobwebs of performing well, stay superior, running for the best etc. It doesn’t matter how unfit you are, how much mentally and physically exhaust you are, you have to run else others would leave you behind.

Now these thoughts are hovering me. Is the future also bleak and monotonous? I will fight for surviving in job, different accessories would tempt me, would run behind money to fulfill the desires of myself and my family. When would I rest then? I will keep on working for a better tomorrow and that tomorrow will change into present. It is a cage full of mirrors where we are running behind ourselves but can never catch our image. So I have decided to rest a little, take a proper breathe, avoid the temptation of remaining the topper all around, lets live an average life full of joy, enjoyment and do all the things which I always want to do and not those which I was supposed to do . Some times breaking the rules is also very adventurous and pleasant. So people get off the track, hang your boots for little time and rest on the green grass watching the sun set having blank mind.